Homesick

Wake up in the morning and look around, everything is ok, fine. but after a while i see so much is missing. the familiar surrounding become so unfamiliar and familiar faces are not seen like i used to for the past 7 months, i miss those familiar faces. the never failed wake up calls from my mom to wake me up from my 10hrs of beauty sleep, the fun and laughter i always enjoy with my family, the so-called 'lessons of life' i always experience in the car with my dad and all the love-hate moments with my sisters; i miss it so much.

there are some moments in life which you may not enjoy it when you're in it but when you actually think back, you wont find it as annoying as you thought it would be, you may then like it, or even love it, and miss it and then wish that history can repeats itself so that you can enjoy it.

I'm all alone, feeling empty. actually, it's more than empty. it feels more like your heart is twitching and those cardiac muscles keep contracting and working and producing lactic acid, maybe that's why i feel so sour now. this uncomfortable feeling drains all my energy away; like a blood sucking leech except it's energy, not blood. i feel so dehydrated, so sad and sour, so inactive like a hibernating bear. Yes, hibernate; this should be the right word. i'm, now, like a bear hibernating during cold winter; not wanting to do anything or what so ever; just want to sleep in my cave and continue hibernating.

i miss my family, ALOT!! T_____T