#118

(this is a post mixed with feelings and issues)

I need a place to rant! fml

I deserve noone.

I hate myself. (just at this point, i think)

I hate the fact that i am lazy.

I hate the fact that i am quitter.

I am sorry i wasnt the person whom you thought i would be.

I am sorry that i didnt live up to your expectations.

I am more sorry that i didnt live up to my own expectations.

I feel sorry for myself. Why?

Because i dont always do the right thing, make the right decision

In the end, i am strike with guilt.

When i am guilty as charged which i always think i am,

I just cant stop running it in my head.

Then i end up waking up between sleeps.

I think i even dream about it.

I need therapy. I am going psycho.

I am so sick of obligations.

Obligations, obligations, obligations!!!

Please let me take a breather!

(This is one messy post. I jump from one issue to another. Oh man!)

Can people be less complicated?

Be straightforward!

Because i seriously dont know what to do.

I mean i dont know what YOU want me to do.

I dont know what i should or should not do.

So.. just tell me what you want me to do.

I will be very much appreciated. Seriously.

But humans like to complicate things.

I understand, i am human too.

Humans also make mistakes.

I know and i make lots of them.

So just fuck my life can?

I am like dying here.

I just dont know what people want!

I dont know what they want me to do!

I dont know what people expect from me!

I dont know, i dont know, i dont knowwwwww!

Can someone just tell me what to do, please?